Family...

Well..today is the day I have been putting off for a while now. I have to file the first accounting of the Estate with the Registar of Wills and it's just so damn difficult. I think because it's so final. I have everything together - notes, receipts, bills....yadda..yadda. Now I have to get it all on paper. 

I remember when the kids and I first started this thing. We walked into the house and just looked around - paralyzed, unbelieving, awkward....sad. I am so proud of them all. I could never have done this without them - all of them. They were with me from the very beginning and in their own ways - have stayed with me through it all. They were my motivation - my reason for wanting to see this whole mess through. 

So many different personalities - each with their own thoughts and feelings. It's at a time like this that the true nature of relationships come forward. Through the whole process of picking up the pieces, we all learned something about ourselves and each other. The puzzle fell apart - and with every challenge, difficulty, tear, decision and sometimes laughter - we are slowly putting the puzzle back together to form a different picture. A picture that will take the shape of those willing to come together and make it a wonderful scene.

No matter what has happened...we are all still a family. Their is no rule book that tells us how to act, think or feel when someone important leaves us. But one thing is for certain, in the end, your family will be the ones standing with you - loving you.